Want to be thankful...

Its Thanksgiving. I got off work the last minute (literally found out as I was getting ready for work) And I want to be thankful and have a wonderful day with my family.

But NO... I am in a killer funk. Massive killer funk.

I have a head cold, a headache and an annoying cough.

My husband has to work so Im on my own for the afternoon.

My kids - while amazing - are typical 3 year old girl and 8 year old boy and with the head cold meds ... Im not very patient.

Dinner at my moms went well but I constantly felt like a swollen massive sausage. Im easily the heaviest unhealthiest person in the group. My stepsister and brothers significant other are gorgeous and maybe a size 4. My grandmother even lost some weight and looked amazing.

I felt HUGE.

Saturday is family pictures. They are so trim and will look great in anything they wear. I am NOT photogenic on a good day. I hate having my pictures taken. And while they are sporting awesome red dresses, I will be covered up from head to toe in black.

A quick minute

I have a few minutes before I have to wake up Bre and wait for G to get off the bus so thought I would do a quick post.

Things are going ok.

• I joined the master swim team. HAHAHA I SUCK.... and I do not like swimming. It is hard. I cannot breath. I get winded. My stroke is poor, my kick is weak. I have horrible form. Having said that I am doing it. I also reached out to the coach about a few private lessons. It WILL get better. I WILL learn to, if not love, atleast like swimming. I WILL learn to breath. I WILL learn a better stroke and kick. My form WILL get better. 
• I am on the 6 day FAST cycle of thin and healthy total solutions. It is my least favorite phase. Breakfast is TINY. And if I do not plan well then by afternoon I am starving. Two nights ago that starving led to stopping at McDs on the way home from work. Last night I was stronger. 
• I have NO clue what my weight is. I briefly stepped on my scale at home the morning after the salty fries and nuggets. It was not pretty (195.6)... hopefully it is actually lower than that. I learned my lesson - put the damn scale away again. 
• I have got re-energized on getting my house situated and nicer - fabric finally made it to the seamstress for the new curtains, paint swatches are on the walls. Tons of things are pinned on pinterest. 
• Restarted weight training with the chalean extreme. Granted Ive only done one night this week but Im planning to do it tonight too. 

Sorry so short, life is busy.